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25 and growing up? From kath84 in not a diary (55 days old)

I have ten minutes to write a quick blog. These days things seem to be moving in a very adult and grown up direction for me. I'm moving in with the other half, we're looking at buying furniture - th… more

heating up From kath84 in not a diary (129 days old)

The heatwave over the last few days has generally knocked me for six, and I've ended up with some sort of flu bug (I hope not the swine kind) and in bed for about 3 days. I'm glad in a way that I won… more

writings From kath84 in not a diary (151 days old)

Hello. Some recent writing... here we go... Places I'd Like Us to go. Boston city centre. Your eyes wide in Quincy Market oysters buried deep into the ice. Holding each other tight at nigh… more

enough is enough? From kath84 in not a diary (158 days old)

For some time I have been struggling with what I might write about in my next blog, and to be honest, I'm still none the wiser so have elected to write about a range of things and hope that some sense… more

25 and 24 hours From kath84 in not a diary (165 days old)

So, I'm now 24 hours into being 25... and I don't feel particularly different, but then I suppose I didn't really expect to feel older overnight. Birthdays are interesting things. I've always been… more

3D communication From kath84 in not a diary (176 days old)

The thought suddenly occured to me, working at home this afternoon and still nursing a slightly painful tummy, that 3D communication isn't what it used to be. It certainly isn't for me, anyway. The … more

From kath84 in not a diary (184 days old)

I love this poem by ee.cummings and am in a contemplative and tired mood so I thought I'd post it: i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my … more

personal space From kath84 in not a diary (188 days old)

The concept of space, and finding a place in the world, is something which has been on my mind for a while. Since October 2008 I've been living in shared houses close to my job, and discovering both … more

the art of losing From kath84 in not a diary (202 days old)

Hello everyone I have very few words lately. It seems the more I say, the less I achieve. Everytime something is gained these days, something else seems to be lost. I've never asked for everythi… more

staying put From kath84 in not a diary (213 days old)

Hello I've been doing a lot more 'staying put' than before in the last couple of weeks. I've moved house and the new place is a lot nicer. It makes me more inclined just to 'veg' on the sofa or i… more

spring thoughts From kath84 in not a diary (235 days old)

Hurrah for it nearly being April. That's one month away from my birthday month. I like May a lot. But April is nearly as good. It did, after all, inspire my favourite ever opening line of poetry: … more

moving on up now... From kath84 in not a diary (248 days old)

The last few days have been interesting... I went to Scotland for the first time. Fair enough, it was only to go to a conference and then come straight back again, but it still counts as Scotland … more

that's enough love for one day... From kath84 in not a diary (268 days old)

Hello all. Gosh, I'm tired. It's been one of those weekends and I have the feeling it's been the same for others I care about. I moved out a while ago into a houseshare with 3 others who I di… more

balancing expectations From kath84 in not a diary (273 days old)

I feel sad this evening. Obviously on the one hand, I'm really happy to have met someone I really like (and who likes me, hurrah) but the reaction of the people I really love has been disappointing. … more

recent writings From kath84 in not a diary (277 days old)

Hello Wanted to blog some thing I've written recently. Here we go: Ever since Ever since our conversation I've been lost in desolation Wondered what will happen to me now I know we disa… more

the order of things From kath84 in not a diary (281 days old)

Got a few moments to blog before I really should go to bed. I have a feeling that the snow may cause me to have a bit of a hectic day tomorrow. things generally seem a lot more hectic than they used… more

words on a page From kath84 in not a diary (299 days old)

I was called to a meeting yesterday to analyse responses to a questionnaire. The task was relatively simple - reduce responses into categories and then match the answers of all the questionnaires int… more

and no-one knew From kath84 in not a diary (308 days old)

And no-one knew Nobody knew the way I used to see you not even you. Or how often I thought of you alone. I used to say 'I'll tell you everything' but I was too afraid. because I never knew i… more

churning From kath84 in not a diary (309 days old)

So, onto the subject of relationships, then. I managed to sort of drop this for a while, but i'm finally inspired to write about it again. I've recently met someone who I think (and cross my finge… more

putting the year to one side From kath84 in not a diary (314 days old)

Hello I can't write very much as I have been struck down by that horrible flu bug going around. so i've got a really huuuge headache and i'm having to stay pretty near the bathroom. however... … more

all things considered From kath84 in not a diary (332 days old)

I always said when I started this blog that I would never use it for my place to 'have a go' at the world. I just think it's really boring to read about other people's moans and problems. I have sev… more

i wrote this last night and... From kath84 in not a diary (335 days old)

i thought i would 'blog' it. Not a lie It is not the truth. and I am acting quite unlike myself as I begin I said to you it's hard to win me over what a lie the hardest thing for me is th… more

terrifying From kath84 in not a diary (346 days old)

Is anyone else terrified of christmas? So much for the 'credit munch' the shops are already heaving and I'm starting to wander aimlessly around picking up things that sparkle, like some sort of magpi… more

friends From kath84 in not a diary (350 days old)

I didn't write this, but I think sometimes it's the truest thing I've read in ages. Many who say friend, friend, clutch their balls like prayers for fear something of themselves may break loos… more

update From kath84 in not a diary (355 days old)

My head is feeling about 5% better than it was. I am hoping that this points towards a daily 5% improvement rate, or maybe weekly. Here's hoping. Losing someone is very difficult, even if I did k… more

reflection on the weekend From kath84 in not a diary (365 days old)

Hello all The funeral was pretty much what I expected. I thought I'd hold it together initially, but I was in tears mainly at the poignancy of the whole thing. It was like I was watching a film, … more

grief From kath84 in not a diary (374 days old)

I'm spending an afternoon at home with my parents trying to take stock and re-evaluate. Recently we have all lost someone we were close to and death does do funny things to you even if you were expec… more

it's all over? From kath84 in not a diary (379 days old)

Death is nothing at all….. I have only slipped away into the next room, I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, that we are still. Call me by my old familiar name. Speak to me in the e… more

sinking fast From kath84 in not a diary (386 days old)

When I'm sinking, I tend to do and say things I wouldn't do if i was feeling ok. or, maybe i could rephrase that to say, when i'm sinking, i become a louder version of my true self. i get to the poin… more

i told u so... From kath84 in not a diary (393 days old)

I don't really have much to say except I have a WH Auden poem in my head which illustrates quite well my current thoughts... If I could tell you Time will say nothing but I told you so, Time o… more